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God is kewl in many ways.  Like the past couple of months, I’ve thought okay I have a mission, I have ideas, I have the skills, how do I do what I need to do.  I know God has provided an answer, but sometimes do you ever just hesitate and wonder how.  I want to take the next step, but really how is it gonna work.  I know that I know but the enemy has his way of just making you question how.

Take the step and move forward, your Savior wants to bless you and show you more. When you know God is leading you and you take your step in faith know that you will have others whom come up against you.  Be steady in your faith and trust Him to lead you.

As Ron and I make decisions for 2009, others may not quite understand them, but we know God is lighting our paths.  The crossroads can be difficult at times to go through but God is stronger and wiser than us.  We are following God through His mentoring.  He has given me skills to use along the way to provide an income for us, now I need to put them to action.  It can be overwhelming where to begin, but first is acceptance, getting a coach, establishing the task lists, and steadily taking each step.  The next 30 – 45 days will be encouraging, enlightening, and at times not easy, but I will continue to strive ahead to make progress each day.  I can’t wait to share all the excitement with each of you in 60 days….. 2009 is the year to Give Back and Celebrate Change!


Geesh talk about being a slacker… Do you ever feel like you have so much you want to do and wonder what keeps you from doing it?  Okay I know we all could say time is against us, we don’t have enough time in a day.  But seriously some things we just don’t give the time too.

Wow, as I wrote that a few things popped into my head.  Like prayer, reading the Word daily, exercising, blogging, reading for self knowledge, making a phone call, smiling at someone instead of scowling… These things are simple they don’t require a whole lot of time, but yet we put them off.

Okay the word isn’t slacker… it’s LAZY.. I am lazy.

Why do we allow ourselves the time to be this way?  Doesn’t it feel better to accomplish these small things and give back into the lives of others than to put them off.  For me it does, I would rather feel accomplished than lazy and unmotivated.

I have learned since I am not working, I need an out for the day.  I need to get out of the house to get some things accomplished.  Even it I am sitting at Starbucks to do them, I need to be out of the grave which for me is my house.  Then it makes it easier to go home, clean, cook, and if time permits catch a recorded tv show.  I think commercials are a thing in the past for me, I can’t stand to watch a show with interruptions; I’d rather tape a show and fast forward through the commercials.  It sures saves time!

I challenge each of you write a list of things you want to do after work and reward yourself with the sense of accomplishment once you complete it.  Really what is 15 min of time or even 30 min…. It doesnt take more than that when you begin to acccomplish each one of the items I mentioned.  You will learn that as you do these things in a small amount of time you will hunger to do add more.

Find your grave and step away from it.

Are you hungry?  Not for my food my friends, but for the Truth.  Is the a hollow, empty feeling inside your soul? Do you try and find what can fill the void inside your soul….

I am hungry, but until now I didn’t truly know that it was my soul crying out for the Truth.  I keep telling myself I need to find my passion, my drive, I need a reason.  I knew I wanted or I thought I wanted a deeper relationship with Christ. I was talking as though I this was something I was seeking.  It’s crazy how we can talk our way into believing we are seeking the Truth.  All words, no action.

I have come to the realization with my friends praying for me and I myself that my soul is HUNGRY, it’s THIRSTY.  That empty feeling, that void inside myself… there is nothing this world can do for me, but only my Savior can fill.  My soul is crying out for food and water.  If we aren’t close to our soul, we will miss it.  We will ignore what our soul is actually needing.

Christ has called us to three duties as a Christian: giving, praying, and fasting.

I missed the third, fasting.  There are so many decisions in my life right now to be made and I am wanting a breakthrough.  I have uncertainty and distractions all around me; I keep wondering is this right or am I just wanting these things so much I think they are or is it God leading me. I finally have woken up to what God is saying and my soul needs.  God wants all of me, not just my words, not just my time, not just my desire, he wants me to be completely empty before him.  My spirit is cluttered by things of this world.  In Matthew 6, Christ talks about our giving, our prayer life, and fasting… and I find it relevant that in the next chapter He speaks of asking, seeking, and knocking…  Are you ready to hear Him and find the anwser.

Christ wants to reveal to each of us the desires of our soul.  He wants to speak life into us.  He needs us to be ready.  He spoke to me a month maybe even two months ago to be ready.  Get prepared and be ready.  I thought this meant you have this time off clean your house, get organized with the family and all.  Little did I realize he meant get prepared and be ready I have something to for you, I want to lead you….  I missed the Truth to His words, I was so cluttered with me and the world around me.  Christ wants me and you; He wants our obedience, to bare our souls to Him.  How though??

Fasting is an answer I found.  I know about giving, not just our money, but our time, our service… I love to do this… I know about prayer, spending the quiet time with him, sharing with him… But what I didn’t realize was fasting we are called to as well.  I thought fasting was an option per say.  I knew about it, but I didn’t quite catch on.

Fasting can happen a number of different ways and for an unlimited number of reasons. The most important thing to know about fasting is that it is to be done in secret.   Its not to be told to everyone you talk to or displayed on a bulletin board for the world to see.  Its sacred between you and God. A book I am currently reading is:  Fasting by Jentezen Franklin.  It is a great read, one that I am coasting right through.

Fasting means to crucify. Giving up something you desire or participate in frequently and replacing it with prayer.  I love Starbucks, daily, twice a day at times… It would be crucifying that urge to go to Starbucks and replacing that desire with prayer.  If your a news junkie, it could be resisting the urge to watch the news or listen to it… giving it up completely for a period of time, but when you would be watching the news or listening to it, again replacing it with prayer.  Fasting can mean giving up food completely as well… there are different degrees of fasting.  I encourage you to learn and seek more knowledge on this duty we are called too.

As I sit here this evening not able to sleep I have lots of thoughts traveling in my mind.  I am troubled by a relationship I’ve had in the past few years.  You think you know someone and then as that relationship ends you discover the truth.  There had been troubled waters one last time we seen one another.  I’ve tried a few times to clear those waters and have been ignored. Since the attempts I’ve learned some things that have sadden my heart for these friends.  Tonight I took the first step of saying goodbye and letting those unhealthy relationships go.  It was hard to start with delete within our social networks, but I know it was the right thing to do.  Create that space.  As I deleted I battled with doing so and not doing so… I know in my spirit I needed to and I finally did.  It’s sometimes hard to do the right thing.

I can accept peace in knowing I’ve done what was necessary and that Jesus will pour out His joy into my life.  I know He is smiling at me for accepting His hand while letting go.  He will fill that void with healthy new relationships as I move forward in 2009.

——   We all have many enemies, know that our God is our protector — Psalm 3: 1- 8 & Psalm 4: 1-8 (my morning and evening prayer)

I was going to write a lengthy post on goals for 2009, and then I realize that I usually get overly ambitious on Jan 1st, and write some extremely specific goals. Then a year later, I look back and feel disappointed over the things that I didn’t quite reach. When I saw this Chris Brogan suggestion to come up with 3 Words, I thought this suited me much better.

For 2009, my 3 words (or phrases) are with a few details of what they stand for:

1. Rubber Band: I want to stretch beyond my comfort zone. Expand my heart in serving others.

Mission/LifeGroup/Women  Relationships

2. Paper Clip: Time Mgmt – Write/Share – Finances

3. Target: Daily Silence – Go Green — Weekly Dates

What are your 3 words for 2009?

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