As I sit here this evening not able to sleep I have lots of thoughts traveling in my mind.  I am troubled by a relationship I’ve had in the past few years.  You think you know someone and then as that relationship ends you discover the truth.  There had been troubled waters one last time we seen one another.  I’ve tried a few times to clear those waters and have been ignored. Since the attempts I’ve learned some things that have sadden my heart for these friends.  Tonight I took the first step of saying goodbye and letting those unhealthy relationships go.  It was hard to start with delete within our social networks, but I know it was the right thing to do.  Create that space.  As I deleted I battled with doing so and not doing so… I know in my spirit I needed to and I finally did.  It’s sometimes hard to do the right thing.

I can accept peace in knowing I’ve done what was necessary and that Jesus will pour out His joy into my life.  I know He is smiling at me for accepting His hand while letting go.  He will fill that void with healthy new relationships as I move forward in 2009.

——   We all have many enemies, know that our God is our protector — Psalm 3: 1- 8 & Psalm 4: 1-8 (my morning and evening prayer)


I was going to write a lengthy post on goals for 2009, and then I realize that I usually get overly ambitious on Jan 1st, and write some extremely specific goals. Then a year later, I look back and feel disappointed over the things that I didn’t quite reach. When I saw this Chris Brogan suggestion to come up with 3 Words, I thought this suited me much better.

For 2009, my 3 words (or phrases) are with a few details of what they stand for:

1. Rubber Band: I want to stretch beyond my comfort zone. Expand my heart in serving others.

Mission/LifeGroup/Women  Relationships

2. Paper Clip: Time Mgmt – Write/Share – Finances

3. Target: Daily Silence – Go Green — Weekly Dates

What are your 3 words for 2009?

Today is the first day of the week and it started off rough. I woke up, a blessing, I felt better, a blessing, I have my family and my husband awake with me, a blessing, I have a car which runs, a blessing, I a home full of pets, a blessing, I have a home, a blessing, I have the freedom to read my bible, a blessing, I have a tv to watch the news, a blessing, I have the internet to communicate with friends and family, a blessing, i have food to eat, a blessing, I have people who want to hang out with me, a blessing, I have running water, a blessing, I have clothes and their clean, a blessing… and that’s only to name a few blessings. But one thing that can spoil all the blessings is fighting with my step son first thing in the morning.  Makes me feel like a real horrible mom.  What a way for my teens to start their day.  Not only did I make his Monday a horrible one, but it affected each of the kids.  We have a rough relationship as it is and things have been going real well the past two weeks.  Then BOOM!  I let old self get in the way, over something so simple.  Why do teens have to make things so complicated; why do I allow myself to get so worked up instead of just keep a level head.  For the morning I let the identity thieves come in my mind and overwhelm me at what I should of done, how horrible I really am.  It didn’t take me as long as it use too, but I finally cried out to Jesus.  I finally took the time I needed to repent and work it out.  I put the steps in place to bring healing to this relationship and I took the step to apologize to each of them.  I talked with him during his lunch break and after school about how we need to change things.  I know its not only me, but I can only work on myself and recognize what I can do to change things.  I am thankful for friends that share even the little things in their lives that mean so much to others.  When we allow God to use us through our simple thoughts and deeds.  Thank you Amy for your post on Facebook today! It’s just what I needed to read and hear!  I’ve pasted in the simple note that she posted for all to read…. 🙂


Last weekend at the Beyond Women’s Event, sweet Shari talked about identity. Thieves in many forms can steal it… but God creates and recreates it.

What steals your identity as you see yourself?

Sometimes I feel…
invisible, unworthy, tired, lonely, poor body image, guilty, bitter, finances, last, rejected, envious, lost, single

What is your identity as God sees you?

But in Christ I am…
accepted, friend, forgiven, comforted, adopted, called, free, loved, protected, beautiful

~Romans 12:2~
Do not conform anylonger to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

Todays message at church was great. Practical Athesist you can check it our for yourself Tuesday live on the internet.

The message to me made me think of the way I spend my time.  To most Time is Money.  I thought I am going to see how many shows I have recording on my dvr and read that much more.  Let’s say I have 5 shows recording, which is equal to 5 hours, than I will read for 6 hours. By reading I don’t mean junk fictional stuff I mean my bible and a book that can inspire and motivate me to become more of who God has called me to be.  I have several books in mind… Wide Awake, Soul Craving, IT, John’s Story, and In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day.

The next item on my list of changes from this weeks message is how we do Christmas.  We already do it differently than most.  We celebrate Christmas by celebrating the birth of Christ with a birthday party.  We have cake, ice cream, and for gifts we write down three things we want to give to Christ the following year.  We take turns reading the Christmas story as well.  We have a nice homemade dinner and then enjoy each other’s company for the remaining of the day.  We don’t put up a Christmas tree, I love lights though. We use a homemade manager with hay in it and I hang up the star of Bethlehem in the corner.  The kids each get 3 gifts a piece, a stocking, and the kids don’t open these items until New Years Eve.  This year though I believe we are going to do it differently.  We will discuss our ideas with the kids and finalize it together as a family.  I am thinking one gift for each of them, serve at a local mission on Christmas, and an option to go on a missions trip during the following year or adopt a child from another country to provide for through a mission. I’ll keep ya posted on how we decide to move forward.  Truly do we need anything.
How do you celebrate Christmas or Birthdays? I’d love to hear your traditions or changes your making this year…..

It’s Saturday and everyone is out and about doing yard work, going shopping, visiting friends and relatives, enjoying soccer games, watching college football, and going to movies.  Its a beautiful day here in So Cal.  Sun is shining, wind is blowing (hard), and leaves have fallen.  I sit here in my living room enjoying the sound of the wind chimes and listening to the wind blow.  So amazing how we can’t see the wind, though we feel it and hear it.  Such is the beauty of the wind.

The sound of the wind chimes brings a smile to my face and joy to my heart. We are home today just relishing in the quietness of the day.  Relaxing instead of rushing the day by.   I hear the leaves roll across the sidewalk, the birds sing as they enjoy the company of one another while in search of food. Once they find the food I’ve placed outside the window I get to enjoy them flying in and away from the holder. I watch them push one another and peck one another off the perches.

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